tho sadly, not by my own merit. been bugging others to assist me in this work of longsuffering. nonetheless. it's been an amazing week
the problem. what i call the robot who doesn't hear. which was a wrong diagnosis :(:( ysee, that's why i'm burning soooooooo many hours in office. i keep hitting the wrong problems. how to solve a problem when u duno what's the problem, that's why. arghs!!!
perhaps it's bcos yl keep saying he's dumb. and now i think i'm dumb. why do i spend so much time and dun get results? :(:(
well, actually i do have some answers to that question.
- don't have a feel of expected results. duno where to look in the
- lack of knowledge in domain
- not in the habit of effects-based operations
- inputs key in wrongly (dumbest of all reasons :(:()
- not asking for help when i need. there are some software bugs. but i tried to take it on my own. which is dumb. waste time and nv solve the problem. data migration and debugging nv felt like such a pain.
- lack of knowledge in code implementation and association between models and processes. rather not used to splitting the work between analyst and software engineer.
i'm thankful for the boss who is ever so patient and guiding. everytime i say something dumb, he'll just filter and guide me in the right path to think. when i say something right, he'll be generous with kind words. it's a cheap thrill; but i love to hear them :D pardon me, it's only human. i'd say he's made a very wise move... then i'll keep wanting to get things done well. amazingness.
boss even 亲历亲为 to move a PC unit over from lab to my cubicle. haiix. feel like a parasite :(:(
//thanks YL for helping too :):)
now there are 4x CPU and 3x monitors at my cubicle. sauna.
thankful for the software guys who stayed back with me to debug. jonathan hasn't OT'ed since 2 years back? oh no.... david is really good la. he can speak in english and code in c++ at the same time. win. i know why i never manage A for any programming classes now (tho i always think that i'm pretty good HAHA)i like the software folks. very focused at work. off work, it's all munch and talk cock.
boss wanted a good weekend. so i determined to get the batch runs over the weekend. calibrated for super long..... the runs should complete about now *cross fingers*
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the senior scores at paraphrasing and aggregation. good for indep learning?
that's one thing i foresee myself grappling with for the next weeks.
while i know it's good to be indep, work with minimal supervision, be trusted with macro managing. butbut. my lack of confidence in my current level of ops analyses nudges me. i need more guidance. NEED. how do i say it?
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