天灾人祸

unpredictable is life's middle name. pardon my 职业病，but if we draw run chart for life, i'm sure it is always out of control and flooded with anamolous points.
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typhoon in philippines, hitting vietnam soon/already. very saddening to see the ppl struggling in the water, dragging their feet thru the high water levels.

19 year old sp student dies in china, supposedly got stabbed at a ktv. he is there for internship, go ktv with some friends, according to the news.

life is just so suddenly.

that day i was thinking, why am i so gan cheong to invest my money or to get the "most value for money" insurance... i can only conclude that it's an admittance of how i much i want to control a life that i really do not have control over. i don't know about tomorrow, i don't know if it'll bring me sun or rain (and i dun trust weather forecasts btw). some kind of 天灾人祸 may befall me, just as i've had a sudden "enlarged pimple".

my life, as it seems is not meant to be over yet; yet i seem to not have learnt to let go of the micro little nitty gritty. i shud really learn to embrace life as it is, and live life with thanksgiving for every single breath that could so easily be taken away.

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原来真的很怕会失去所有曾经拥有的。。。 saying goodbye to destello this sun, archiving convos, 读着type着，感觉自己和自己分离。那是一种天灾人祸降临的痛楚