sunday (week) #...

... i lost count... this shows how long it has been alr! :/ it's end of aug, aka 1 or 2 more days to the rally! quite exciting :)

many things happened this week... contract briefing at dso, signing off the moh research grant proposal and finally! the cpoe kickoff meeting back at sigh. this is the epitome of bad timing! the big business that will involve the major stakeholders from outpatient to a&e to inpatient to pharmacy to labs (there's a whooping 12 labs) to diagnostic radiology are all here and ready to start/have started and i'm gonna leave. sobs. apart from feeling bu she de abt not getting to do this mega proj, i am actually a lil worried abt the one who is gonna take over. zhengjie likened this to how i see that an elderly woman is gonna cross the road and kena banged down by a car but instead of helping(trying to be a hero), i choose to bend down and pick up a coin (he didn't state the value tho but obviously can't be more than 1$) from the ground. makes it sound like a moral issue. which may not be untrue. cos if the system screws up, blood etc tests and results get screwed up, and ppl may just die. may. may not. i believe that the ppl who are still on the team will make things work even if whoever takes over my part screws up. or maybe the proj just get delayed... the hard copy forms shud still be able to manage for the time being.

not to forget the chalet to celebrate ptb's dad's bday "plus" svc ops 4th anniversary. ptb bought champagne to celebrate the event and we went around toasting each other. there was a moment when he went around "to many more years of svc ops" and he was about to cheers with me... and i moved my cup away... :( there was a moment where our eyes met and i wouldn't be surprised if he could tell. crap. it's things like this that make me feel so bad abt leaving.

i duno what to make out of receiving sms which are so similar to tweets. for my info? nnr? want me to know? sometimes there are replies i wanna gv but i dunno why things hv got to a stage where i'm so cautious of what i reply. i dun wanna get over-excited when things are just fmi. i'm so tired of interpreting and misinterpreting.