what if i don't wake up tmr? the last meal i hv on earth is mui fan, second last meal is engin hot plate (Alex: you could add in "with Alex"), third last meal is made by khusnul with lots of potatos. the last people i'd hv met are my family. i haven't told my colleagues that our souls are made to last forever, do not grieve for me. i havent told my colleagues why i didn't join them at halloween and am torn in deciding whether to join them for late night ktv. it's difficult for me to give up the fun of socialising but i know late night ktv is dumb. esp after an afternoon of dragon boating and the race the next morning. it's just killing myself. so i wonder if this is suffering of any sorts. yet i conclude, any suffering due to our pursuit of acceptance by man or our personal ideology of the right way to be treated, that's no suffering at all. it's not impt. should i wake up tmr, i'll be alive, and i'll make every moment count. and i will not eat macs.

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at least i had isaac chopping a packet of rice for me with "Strictly for Yi Xin ONLY" slashed across it. ahhs. it's good to see the youths grow up and turning around to care for you instead. now there remains sihui's health & work, if we survive this, we'll survive all. and supergirl, i have absolute faith you'd just make it there. see you in heaven babe.